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July 4th, 2006
11:46 pm - zaijian!
going to China for 6 weeks on Thursday
you won't be hearing from me for a while
if you're interested in my travel blog, email me
zaijian!
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June 30th, 2006
06:43 pm
why is it impossible to figure out what the deadlines for graduate applications are?! ahh!
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June 29th, 2006
11:08 pm
there's something about driving at night in DC that always gets me thinking. usually the radio is playing some song i used to hear when i was first learning to drive. and i remember all these short cuts - though i forget a lot of them, too - and i remember how long some lights are. there are new things all around. hechts is going out of business, and a car crashed into its side. i remember driving fast, trying to make curfew. someone once drave right into the center of westmoreland circle. way to go, st. albans. sidwell has a new parking lot, and my school has a large hole in front of it. i guess some things change while other things stay the same. i feel like i've stated that before in my lj. clearly, i have not learned much. but, seriously, when i look back on the past four years, i am not sure how much has changed. i don't really feel very different. i know a few more facts that i can toss around in conversation. i've had a few more conversations. apparently, i've been to 30 states. an accomplishment? usually, i go around not really caring about knowing the future, but i've come to see that some things really are annoying not to know. i guess it's not worth complaining, though. i am not suicidal or anything, but it sometimes brings a smile to my face to know that someone would be upset if i were gone. whew, morbid, jess. i am hungry for something different but timid enough not to go for it - until suddenly there's a ticket booked for me for china. then i remember why i get myself into things like this.
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June 6th, 2006
10:43 pm
okay, today was better. sometimes talking things out is good. sometimes it really isn't. sometimes, you still cannot tell. sometimes, vageuness gets the best of you.
gonna take a break from LJ for a while.
:: if you care to ask, then ask ::
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/cool.gif) meh
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12:31 am
i might regret posting this later, but right now, i just want the the world to know that I AM FUCKING PISSED.
Current Location: in a world where people SUCK. apparently. dammit.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/annoyed.gif) moody
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May 31st, 2006
04:29 pm
Andrew bought me a bottle of "Stress Out" candies that would allegedly cure my stressed out-ness when downed with 8 oz. of Scotch. ("If symptoms persis, repeat every 10 minutes until you don't give a damn about anything!")
In an effort to wipe out sentimentality, get rid of stuff, and "celebrate" being done with college, I just opened them. The bottle was dusty, and the candies are a little stale, but in many ways, eating them now makes a lot of sense. Well, to me, at any rate.
Do you have an internet addiction?
I just packed two suitcases to take up to my new apartment tomorrow. (We are getting the keys!) But it doesn't look at all different in my room. Damn. I have too much crap.
Alright, to the gym. Right.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/yawn.gif) anti-climactic-ized
Current Music: wizzing cars
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May 30th, 2006
07:52 pm - Jess's weird day with nature
I got sunburned AND I got caught in the rain - TWICE! Hmm... Maybe I could blame this on global warming. Or, err, Jess's unprepare-ed-ness. And lack of vocabulary. And insanity.
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I AM DONE WITH COLLEGE?!?!
(err, one more paper. but still...)
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/sad.gif) wet
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May 29th, 2006
08:47 pm
I am starting to realize and fear...
I don't what it's like to be bored.
And I don't know what to do.
Current Location: living room + A/C =
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/confused.gif) confused
Current Music: the pod
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01:41 pm
I am such a dipsh*t. I just found an old mix tape that a friend made me junior year. Now listening to it, I understand all the love/sex undertones. I almost want to call him up and apologize for not knowing earlier. But, I guess the question is, what would that do now?
We had the final WYSE Banquet yesterday. It went so well. So many people put so much work into it. I think it was the best one yet. Then some of us went out for margaritas afterward. Lots of fun! Some great photos, too...
I am really anxious to move - mostly 'cause waiting is the hardest part. I just want to get everything in order, put things up on my new walls, buy the cleaning products I'll need, etc.
Despite the madness, I am looking forward senior week. I don't want to expect too much out of it, though. That just sets me up for a let-down.
I wonder if I will/should keep an LJ after graduation. Will there be anything left to say? :P Just kidding...
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/sweat.gif) sweaty
Current Music: "roads" - portishead
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May 25th, 2006
02:45 pm
wow, it's so nice to be able to catch up on the news, clean up my room, call people... life.
Current Location: cobb (why?!)
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: funky music
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May 24th, 2006
05:25 pm - Free food just tastes better.
how can you leave your bathroom stall, see me washing my hands, and STILL NOT WASH YOUR HANDS?!!!? AHHH!!
In other news, I am burnt out. One more presentation. One more paper.
WYSE Elections went surprisingly smooth. I am confident in next year's group! It will be hard, but I think it has the potential to be awesome.
I attended a focus group on leadership today. It was nice to talk with five other people who do lots on campus and still have the same issues. They also brought up some points that I had never thought about before. But, in the end, surprisingly, it made me appreciate all the work I have done. Even though it has been really hard and annoying at times, it has been worth it.
I need to figure out my summer plans. The roadtrip idea is falling apart, but that might be good because I might want to go back to DC for a bit in June. I go to China July 7th and will return August 17th. Crazy!
Lack of sleep for Jess = bad. But, I'll sleep when I'm dead. Right?
Some people are so generous. (Thank you.)
Starting to go to the gym again gives me a headache.
I should try my rollerblades soon!
Current Location: 5th floor reggaroni
Current Mood: headachey
Current Music: chewing gum
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May 23rd, 2006
12:54 pm
i was totally kidding about the "home free" thing, apparently...
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May 21st, 2006
09:03 pm
after tonight, i am home free.
holy shit.
Current Location: loudness
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/geeky.gif) study-ful (ha.)
Current Music: gah!
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May 19th, 2006
06:05 pm
give me a break!!!!!!
WTC trailer.
More like, WTF?
I mean, come on. Can you wait a little bit before you profit off this tragic moment in history?
Current Location: home-ified
Current Mood: annoyed
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May 18th, 2006
10:29 pm
is it sick/sad that i <3 flossing?
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/balloon.gif) weird
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08:55 pm
there is something about meeting another's eyes that is
magical
illuminating
scary
powerful
sad
motivating
Current Location: reggaroni
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/blank.gif) blah
Current Music: frou frou
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May 17th, 2006
10:24 pm - a dollar underwater keeps on dreaming for me...
wow, i cannot wait for college to be over.
too bad it has to end with this feeling of urgency, but it's true.
there's a world out there to see.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/wideeyed.gif) anxious to get out!
Current Music: lucky denver mint - jimmy eat world
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May 16th, 2006
12:38 pm
apparently i am going insane and thought my presentation for bio was this thursday. it's actually next thursday. so, i got an extension for nothing. hey, but i'll take advantage of it.
funny how it's so hard to psych yourself into something, though. like, now that i have the extension, i am much less stressed and thus much less inclined to work. damn.
i walk around this campus and realize how much i am going to miss this place. at the same time, i knojw it will be ready to go come June.
Current Location: stuart
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/happy.gif) relieved and dumb
Current Music: many lunch-eating voices
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May 15th, 2006
09:19 pm - haha
( Read more... )
such a good idea!
Current Location: 3rd floor Reggaroni
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/amused.gif) amused
Current Music: jazz
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10:23 am - facebook strikes again!
I just found my PEN PAL from AMERICAN GIRL that I got in elementary school! (She's the one I named my diary after!) Wow, she is friggin' beautiful now (she used to have big glasses and be awkwardly skinny). AND she's CONSERVATIVE! She also majored in Accounting, Finance, Insurance and Real Estate (linked b/c it's from facebook) and she's going to be a Credit Analyst next year. Yikes! :P
Current Location: reggaroni
Current Mood: amused
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